Soundtrack of My Life

Waking up:Sami Yusuf – Asma Allah- He’s one of the most famous Muslims singers. He is singing the 99 names of ALLAH
First Day of School:Sami Yusuf – Ya Mustafa- I love this track, it was one of the first I listened to from his album
Falling in Love:Outlandish- Wish you were here- This song is always stuck in my head. Outlandish Is a band group. Their songs are very powerful with a lot of meaning to it.  
Fight Song: Sami Yusuf-Free- This is about Muslim women, keeping strong by wearing the head scarf.
Breaking Up: Outlandish-Bond Between Us- Wow this song fits perfectly with the title event. Song is about not breaking bonds.
Prom:  Diana Haddad & Cheb Khaled – Mas We Louly-Arabic song..one of my favorites
Life:Sami Yusuf – Supplication- its a very religious song. barley any instruments. Supplication to God of course
Mental Breakdown: Noor – All For You - This is another religious group. All For You-They’re Referring to God..anything we do is For God.
Driving: MASSARI – REAL LOVE- not everything in my play list is religious lol. Massari is an Arab singer, but the song is in English.
Flashback: Sami Yusuf – Mother - Another great song that I like from Sami Yusuf. This song is for the mothers and how grateful he is he is for everything they do.  
Wedding: Chris Brown – With You- Yes I listen to R&B…Cris Brown is one of my favorite singers. I love this song.
Birth Of Child: Sami Yusuf – Hasbi Rabbi- another favorite song from him.  
Final Battle: Jordin Sparks: Tattoo-my sister introduced me to this song. I fell in love with the song so i had to have it in my computer.
Death Scene: Mishary Rashed Efasy -Anna al-’Abd(nasheed) another Islamic song. About a guy going through hard times.
Funeral Song: Outlandish – Walou- About a little kid.
End Credits: Carole Samaha – Talla3 Fiyeh- Arabic love song about a couple- husband and wife.

If I Was Brave…

Yes but only if i was brave, I would do the things I want to say, or do the things that I want to do. But I am not, I wish I was sometimes. I am to be known to be one of the most sensitive person in my family. I am the kind of person that will not care what others say or think of me. I keep it all inside bottled up and not respond to them. Why should I let people know how i feel by the things they say. Its not like they will care or change…or even say sorry. I am an honest person and sometimes I will tell exactly how I feel, but with that comes patience. I have to think before I speak my mind but a lot of time I don’t do that. And hurting some one else will defiantly hurt me as well. I guess you can call thats an emotional type of brave. But there are several types of brave. Brave where you are known to be heroic. for example the kind of brave where you have saved someones life. Rescued some one. That type of Brave I consider myself to be very good at. I will do what ever i can to save even my own enemy’s life. Even though that person my have hurt my feelings or have hurt me in some how…I will still care about them and save them when they need it. I don’t know why I am like that but I am. And i don’t think I will ever change. One really big experience that I have had in my life dealing with bravery is when my brother saved a woman’s life. One day in Junior High, And i remember this very clearly, before the bell rang for school to be over that day…in-front of the school a car comes extremely fast and hits the front side of the building. Now my brother is in the car waiting for me to get out of class and he sees this all happening right in front of his eyes. It wasn’t only him there…there were other people waiting to pick someone up. So the car totally damaged and everybody is probably thinking to themselves that the woman is dead. You can enter the class to the other side because the car broke the wall. My brother gets out of  his car, and runs to get the lady out of the car. The windows got locked up so he couldn’t open the door. So he punched the window with his fist. Got the lady out and saved her life. She could have died in there. She was running out of breath, my brother was brave to do such a thing…He got hurt by saving the woman. but he never complained about it, because he was more focused on the woman and her life. And with that experiance i have learned so much about this word “Brave”. Saving someones life by risking yours is extremely and beyond brave. 

If Only…

oh my god i can’t even believe how many if only’s i have said in my life… if only i had worked harder, if only i had studied harder, if only i had gone earlier, if only..if only… i remember one time when i was very young around the age of 8 or 9 when my family had moved to America, my oldest sister stayed back home with her kids and didn’t come with to the U.S. i was happy to leave that place but also very sad to leave my relatives and sister behind. i know i was very young and didn’t know much at that time but one thing i have always known was that we should have all came here together. if only we could have found a way to bring my sister here with us…our life would all be a happy one, because then we would be together.. but that’s not how it went, my sister couldn’t come with us because she had kids, she could either leave her kids and family and come with us or stay with her kids and family, so she chose to stay with her children, but if only there was a way to bring her whole family here, is what i always tell my self, our lives would be so much better.

In the news…

In the news there was this story about a guy named Brandon Lithmexay, who actually went to my high school and my Junior high school. it was so sad to find out that he was murdered by one of his friends. he was found dead in a trunk of a car. What the news forgot to mention was that the apartment the car was found, someone had called the police before the day they had found the car, telling the police that there was a white car with blood on the rims, but the police failed to find the car that day.

“A police official confirmed Ms. Alvarado made the 911 call Sunday. It came in at 12:22 p.m. and was assigned a low priority as an abandoned car. An officer responded at 3:30 p.m. but cleared it five minutes later, the official said.

The officer drove to the scene without finding the car, according to Lt. Vernon Hale, a police spokesman. The officer tried without success to call Ms. Alvarado back and then left.

Residents at the apartments were surprised Tuesday to learn of the police’s eventual discovery. Maria Barron said her husband also called to report the bloody car, but police officials could not confirm that.

Ms. Barron said blood was smeared on the door and near the trunk.

“But then it rained, and the blood washed off,” she said in Spanish.

Police said some blood was still visible on and inside the Lincoln when the tow-truck driver took it to Lone Star Auto Services on Beeman Avenue. An employee called police, and officers opened the trunk.” (http://www.dallasnews.com/sharedcontent/dws/dn/latestnews/stories/102407dnmetbodyintrunk.2c8781b.html)

i would say that it was the police fault for not getting there on time maybe if they did then he probably would have still been alive. i think this story grabbed my attention more because i knew Brandon personally and he was a very sweet guy always laughing, always smiling, always cool with almost everyone, i don’t think he deserved this. looking back over my life i think that this story and the 9-11, and the Saddam Hessian stories all stand out to me because with the 9-11 i know so many innocent people died, with the Saddam Hessian assassination story, it’s always sad to see people dying no matter who they are, but Saddam Hessian did kill so many innocent people for no reason at all.

Spring Cleaning

This Spring break i cleaned out under my bed, i had so many boxes with stuff inside of them. I had discovered so many things that i didn’t even know was under there. I found some pictures of my friends and I when we were in Elementary, we all looked so young and I thought about all the fun times we shared together as kids. I also found all of my old yearbooks and letters that my friends and I wrote to each other, i read over them and started to crack up because of some of things we had written. I threw away a lot of my stuff also. I had some pictures that I didn’t want to keep anymore and all the letters my friends had written to me, old earring’s, and books, and even some pen’s and pencils that i didn’t feel the need to have them anymore. some of the stuff made me laugh yet others made me think ‘oh my god i cant believe she said that in the letter’ or ‘man i don’t know why have i had this for so long, its just trash,’. I organized under my bed and in my closet and threw away some of my t-shirts and jeans that i don’t even wear anymore. so i was happy that i actually had some time to clean.

Traveling to a New Perspective

When my family moved from Kurdistan to come here to America, we made a trip to Guam first. We stayed there for about seven months. Now this was big, because living in a place for my whole life, where there was barley any electricity and no technology, I thought that wherever I went it would be the same thing. When we went to Guam I felt like I was in a new world. I have never seen any place so beautiful before. The land was flat.  The grass was green and fresh. There were trees every where, flowers that bloomed, and flying butterflies that spread around in there colorful wings. The smell of roses where everywhere.  I couldn’t believe my eyes, because I have never seen it before. Everything there was so peaceful. I felt happy and my emotions were good. Sometimes I would think that I was dreaming. I knew that this was not like the place that I was living in before. I also knew that I would be starting a whole different life. We stayed in an apartment where it had a big balcony. That was my favorite place…the balcony. I loved it there because I could see the sun when it rises and when it sets. Anytime I needed a place to relax and forget about everything and just have a peaceful moment I would go on the balcony.  I would wake up every morning before everybody and go watch the sunrise. And I would do the same for when the sunsets. It was so beautiful.  Sometimes when I was sad or angry I would sit there and then I would feel calm.  Guam made me realize that there is more out there in life than what I had thought. I started to figure out that not every place I went was going to be exactly the same thing. And that is when I figured out what my wish for this life was going to be. Ever since then I have wished to travel this amazing world…and to visit as many places as I possibly can.

Biggest Turning Point In My Life

September of 1996 was the major turning point of my life. That month changed my entire life, and I became a whole new person. My whole world turned upside down. And I am so glad that, that changed happened to me.  Before I came to America I lived in Northern Iraq. My dad was working for the American government there. When we heard that Saddam was going to come and attack us again, the American government told us to come with them to America. He was going to hurt anybody who worked with the Americans. So we left from Iraq and went to Guam. We spent about 7 months there and moved here to Dallas TX as refugees. I am so thankful for America because they helped us with so much. This change was enormous. I had to learn a new language, start a new school, get use to the food and become custom to a new culture. Above all we had to leave my older sister in Iraq because she was already married and had her own family. She could have come with us but then should have left her husband and kids there. So she stayed there and I have not seen her in 12 years. I have always wanted to go back, but only to visit, not to stay there. Because of the war I have not gone yet. No matter how much I miss my sister and my relatives I am still so thankful that this change happened. I do not think my family and I would have been alive by now. I also do not think that I would have had the education hat have now. And I would not have learned a new language. And I would not have been a religious person. Coming to America changed my entire life, overnight. It did not just change my life but it changed my whole family. My mom had so many health problems, but when we came here she had surgery. And now she is feeling better than before. And my sister had a back problem. She would wake up every morning complaining about her back. In 1998 she had surgery on her back and now she is not feeling any pain anymore. All my brothers and sisters are in school. One of my older sisters is in one of the best medical schools in the US. Education is so important in my family, so all of us would not have gone so far in education if we were still in Iraq.  My whole family is so thankful. If it was not for America I would not have lived up till now, and I am proud to say that I am an American citizen.