About Blogging

I love the idea about blogging but honestly you need to find time to actually blog. Sometimes we get so caught up into doing other important things that we barely have anytime to blog. And that is what happened to me. Blogging is a good way to express yourself. One thing that would have probably made me keep up with it is if we chose our own topics to write about. Have a topic given to us and writing about it makes you think…blogging is more like free write. But it was good though because i got a lot of memories back from when i was young. It makes you learn more about yourself…and i did i learned a lot about myself. I love to do more blogs.. but i would need to find a lot of time for it. Its going to help me release some stress. and blogging is like taking time out, and havening time for myself. Its a way good to release whatever you have thats on your mind. I actually have a journal that i keep its not a diary but its something that i go back and fourth to when i need to get things off my mind. it helps me think more. The blogging I liked it a lot and hopefully I’ll try to keep up with it. And if not i will probably come back to it once in a while…when i need to get things of my mind, and if i like the subject lol…..Thanx Mrs.Goldfarb…this was actually fun.

Word Bank Poem

she nervously walked down richland…
around Dallas she ran
walking, running, running, walking
she fly slowly…..
flew fast Richland
she skinny.. pretty…small
long hair, bright brown
Body cold…
walking, running, running walking…
She nervously walked down Richland

Stress Relief

Yahhh stress I had a lot this semester. School was getting really hard for me. I didn’t know how to deal with it…I was just patient about things. And i guess that is one key way to handle stress, being patient, and staying positive. Not until i got into my psychology class i then knew how to deal with stress. This class helped me a lot.  I learned that in order for me to deal with stress there are six things i have to do. One is i have to Reduce Daily Hassles. What can you do to reduce the stressful burdens of daily hassles. you might still be stuck in traffic but you can use that time to catch up on your reading rather than fighting traffic.  Second is Know your limits. “Don’t bite off more than you can chew”. Avoid taking on more tasks than you can reasonably accomplish. Whenever possible, delegate responsibilities to others. Third is Follow a reasonable schedule. Learn to schedule tasks so they dont pile up. In this way you break stressful tasks into more managebable doses. Try to extand some deadlines to give yourself  more time to finish your work. Fourth is Take frequent breaks. When working on an assignment, take breaks to refresh your mind and body. And I do this a lot, it helps. Fifth is develop more effective time-management skills. Use a monthly calender to organize your activities and tasks. Schedules as many as of your activities as you can in advance to ensure that you have enough time to accomplish your goals. But don’t over schedule yourself. Allow yourself some free, unstructured time. Sixth is to learn to prioritize. Prioritize your daily goals. Assign the number 1 to tasks you must accomplish, the number 2 to those you’d like to accomplish but are less essential, and the number 3 to tasks you’d like to accomplish if time permits. Then arrange your daily schedule to progress downward in your list. These 6 steps will hopefully help….they helped me a lot. And I have learned to deal with stress this way.

“Sing, sing a song…”

When i was a kid, i remember always singing… everywhere i went i would sing… i would make up songs and just sing them all the time. sometimes what i had sang did not even make since… but still people loved it when i use to sing. but as of right now, i still sing but not like i use to. i write poetry more, and i still write some lyrics. but i love to write poetry and thats one of the most creative things that i can do really well.. i use to also draw. My sisters and I would draw and color all the time. i loved it when i was a kid because everything was so easy for me to do back then. right now i have to be careful about what i write because it might not make sense. Anyways, my brother has a studio and sometimes my sisters and I always go over to the studio and record our songs. its amazing because i love to sing and have been singing for so long now, and people say they love my voice and should try out for American Idol but I am not trying to become famous or anything, i just love to sing and write lyrics and poetry for fun, as a hobby. Nothing else. Everybody in my family has some sort of talent. my Whole family loves music and poetry! my mom is a great poet! she can write about anything in two minutes. and my brothers can freestyle to anything. my little sister can dance hip hop really good. and my twin sister is also a good singer. we all have something to do with music in our lives and I think that thats a great way to be creative.

Assessing Ourselves

Over the past four months i think i have become more strong in life. I have learned a lot. Things were a little hectic for me in the past month though. I felt like i was being attacked with so many things, i had a lot of stress. I love school so much, i do my best to succeed. And try to fulfill my dreams. Sometimes it gets hard to do that when there is so much going on in life. I am a multi-task person…i’ll be doing so many things at the same time. Which sometimes its not a good thing. And when i have stress i turn to God. Because He knows how  i am feeling and what i am going trough. And by doing that some of the stress that i have is will not there any more. One of my main goals i wanted to accomplish this semester was to get all A’s in each of my classes. Its hard because of all the things I am going through right now. I wont know if i accomplished that goal or not…not yet, until semester ends than i will know. I am not too much proud of my self. I think i can do so much better in school…if things were a lot easier in life. But that is where it all happens that i began to be strong and have patience. Every struggle i go through i become more strong and have more faith. So everything that goes on it becomes more of a challenge for me. But at the end its all worth the struggle that, i become stronger. I hope that everything will be much easeir for me. And that i will be able to have focus. Because i love Knowledge and knowledge is everything.

Learning From Children-By supercynic

Wow i loved this blog… I agree with everything, this person is saying. I love kids. I love playing with them. sometimes I’d rather be playing with kids than going out with friends. And We definitely can learn from them. This world has become so out of order. Kids are truthful, they will speak the truth. sometimes when i need to know if something looks good i ask my little nephew, and he wont lie and he will tell me the truth if it looks good or not. Sometimes adults will say it something does look good when it really doesn’t, just so they wont hurt your feelings. But the point is that kids are amazing people they. They are caring and considerate. They do not hate, they are Innocent they are loving and i wish US adults were more like them.

Blog is here—> http://supercynic.wordpress.com/2008/05/05/learning-from-children/

Here is a poem that I actually wrote long time ago. It is some way connected to this topic.. Its called “I wish I was forever a baby”

I wish I was forever a baby To live my life with angels all around me Not worrying about the world that surrounds me I wouldn’t know that it’s filled with So much hate and ignorance Because I would be too young to know this Thinking it’s all peaceful like a sleeping new born baby So calm and quite like the clouds that flow on A sunny day so freely And if my life was to end I would end up in Heaven Because I would be free from any kind of sin But the only way I would feel this Is if I were forever a baby

Connecting with others

The blog that Iread was Anum’s blog titled “…On Self Destructive…”- I can totally relate to what she is saying. Showers are awesome…honestly i think i take showers more than she does. When I am feeling down or not myself, or even when i am angry i will go take a shower. I spend about 2-3 hrs. in there with hot water hey gets me all relaxed. And like Anum i do get yelled at too for spending too much time in the shower and wasting all the water. For me its a habit. Mostly when i get upset and angry i take long showers, it clears my mind. I will come out fresh with nothing on my mind, and i wont be upset or angry. instead of losing control and getting mad at others, i just take a shower, its like the water washes out all our anger, and sadness. I know its weird, but i bet there are other people out there like me and Anum. And at the end of the month the water bill is so high…and everybody points fingers at me..i don’t blame them, i admit i do use a lot of water. Its a habit and iam used to it.  So beleive me Anum, your not weird your normal like me lol i can definitely relate to you. And Anum is a good friend. i actually knew her in Jr. High school, and ever since aafter that i never saw her again until this year in English Class.

Soundtrack of My Life

Waking up:Sami Yusuf – Asma Allah- He’s one of the most famous Muslims singers. He is singing the 99 names of ALLAH
First Day of School:Sami Yusuf – Ya Mustafa- I love this track, it was one of the first I listened to from his album
Falling in Love:Outlandish- Wish you were here- This song is always stuck in my head. Outlandish Is a band group. Their songs are very powerful with a lot of meaning to it.  
Fight Song: Sami Yusuf-Free- This is about Muslim women, keeping strong by wearing the head scarf.
Breaking Up: Outlandish-Bond Between Us- Wow this song fits perfectly with the title event. Song is about not breaking bonds.
Prom:  Diana Haddad & Cheb Khaled – Mas We Louly-Arabic song..one of my favorites
Life:Sami Yusuf – Supplication- its a very religious song. barley any instruments. Supplication to God of course
Mental Breakdown: Noor – All For You - This is another religious group. All For You-They’re Referring to God..anything we do is For God.
Driving: MASSARI – REAL LOVE- not everything in my play list is religious lol. Massari is an Arab singer, but the song is in English.
Flashback: Sami Yusuf – Mother - Another great song that I like from Sami Yusuf. This song is for the mothers and how grateful he is he is for everything they do.  
Wedding: Chris Brown – With You- Yes I listen to R&B…Cris Brown is one of my favorite singers. I love this song.
Birth Of Child: Sami Yusuf – Hasbi Rabbi- another favorite song from him.  
Final Battle: Jordin Sparks: Tattoo-my sister introduced me to this song. I fell in love with the song so i had to have it in my computer.
Death Scene: Mishary Rashed Efasy -Anna al-’Abd(nasheed) another Islamic song. About a guy going through hard times.
Funeral Song: Outlandish – Walou- About a little kid.
End Credits: Carole Samaha – Talla3 Fiyeh- Arabic love song about a couple- husband and wife.

If I Was Brave…

Yes but only if i was brave, I would do the things I want to say, or do the things that I want to do. But I am not, I wish I was sometimes. I am to be known to be one of the most sensitive person in my family. I am the kind of person that will not care what others say or think of me. I keep it all inside bottled up and not respond to them. Why should I let people know how i feel by the things they say. Its not like they will care or change…or even say sorry. I am an honest person and sometimes I will tell exactly how I feel, but with that comes patience. I have to think before I speak my mind but a lot of time I don’t do that. And hurting some one else will defiantly hurt me as well. I guess you can call thats an emotional type of brave. But there are several types of brave. Brave where you are known to be heroic. for example the kind of brave where you have saved someones life. Rescued some one. That type of Brave I consider myself to be very good at. I will do what ever i can to save even my own enemy’s life. Even though that person my have hurt my feelings or have hurt me in some how…I will still care about them and save them when they need it. I don’t know why I am like that but I am. And i don’t think I will ever change. One really big experience that I have had in my life dealing with bravery is when my brother saved a woman’s life. One day in Junior High, And i remember this very clearly, before the bell rang for school to be over that day…in-front of the school a car comes extremely fast and hits the front side of the building. Now my brother is in the car waiting for me to get out of class and he sees this all happening right in front of his eyes. It wasn’t only him there…there were other people waiting to pick someone up. So the car totally damaged and everybody is probably thinking to themselves that the woman is dead. You can enter the class to the other side because the car broke the wall. My brother gets out of  his car, and runs to get the lady out of the car. The windows got locked up so he couldn’t open the door. So he punched the window with his fist. Got the lady out and saved her life. She could have died in there. She was running out of breath, my brother was brave to do such a thing…He got hurt by saving the woman. but he never complained about it, because he was more focused on the woman and her life. And with that experiance i have learned so much about this word “Brave”. Saving someones life by risking yours is extremely and beyond brave. 

If Only…

oh my god i can’t even believe how many if only’s i have said in my life… if only i had worked harder, if only i had studied harder, if only i had gone earlier, if only..if only… i remember one time when i was very young around the age of 8 or 9 when my family had moved to America, my oldest sister stayed back home with her kids and didn’t come with to the U.S. i was happy to leave that place but also very sad to leave my relatives and sister behind. i know i was very young and didn’t know much at that time but one thing i have always known was that we should have all came here together. if only we could have found a way to bring my sister here with us…our life would all be a happy one, because then we would be together.. but that’s not how it went, my sister couldn’t come with us because she had kids, she could either leave her kids and family and come with us or stay with her kids and family, so she chose to stay with her children, but if only there was a way to bring her whole family here, is what i always tell my self, our lives would be so much better.